You are a trooper. You are strength, courage, perseverance, resolve, and a kind of patience  I hope to one day know. I am sorry. I am sorry for hitting you harder than in a sibling rivalry kind of way, for squirting juice in your face, and for being mad at you for getting the attention you needed. I’m sorry everyone made you feel so fucked up when really you are just human. And phenomenal. You are so amazing. I love you so much. I am so proud of you. I’m sorry I cried when you broke your nose and that you apologized to me for making me sad. You didn’t make me sad I just wish I could have been there to protect you. The best decision I ever made was following you to NJ. And even though it was a big decisions, even though it changed everything – it was easy. You always came first. I will always clean up your LEGO for you. I will always be here to get high. I will always forgive you. Never forget your intelligence. You will make brilliant things one day. Everyone makes mistakes. You are just as human as the rest of us. I would die for you. Finish school.

P.S. I finally understand why you always wanted to be Blue.

forever fucker, sistar*