I love lists, and I love manifesting. So it’s safe to say that resolutions are right up my alley. Looking back on so many things I’ve written over time that have come true, it’s hard not to believe in the power of putting your intentions down on paper.
My favourite example of this is when I wrote in my journal that I wanted to live in Halifax in 2 years. I didn’t know what 2 years was going to hold for me when I wrote that. I didn’t know how it was going to happen and there was a time when it was more than off the back burner – it wasn’t even on the stove.
2 years to the month I wrote that I pulled up to my house after moving across the country. That wasn’t a new years resolution, but it was something I was resolved to do.
I think what I like particularly about new year resolutions is that we energetically are at a time to let go of the old and start fresh. We want to move forward, feel unburdened. We thrive off that motivation to get going and get stuff done. We are more apt to notice what we do and don’t want in our life anymore because we have the permission to make changes without judgement from ourselves or others.
- DO THE SPLITS
- HOLD SELF IN SPACE IN A HANDSTAND
- GET AN EXCELLENT PUBLISHING CONTRACT
- ABUNDANCE THROUGH ART
- FIRST TRIP OVER SEAS
- WIN GRANT/ARTIST RESIDENCY
- CONTINUE DELVING INTO SPIRITUALITY
- MEDITATE EVERY DAY
- LESSEN REFINED SUGAR INTAKE
- PAY OFF CREDIT CARD DEBT
- FINISH HALF SLEEVE
- TAKE A CLASS (POTTERY, BOOK BINDING, DANCE)
- READ 80/80 OF THE PENGUIN CLASSICS
- FOSTER HEALTHY, ABUNDANT RELATIONSHIPS
- WITH SOCIAL MEDIA
- MAKE MUSIC
- BECOME ACTIVE IN LOCAL SPOKEN WORD/ POETRY COMMUNITY
- WORK WITH HALIFAX SOCIAL NETWORK
- GROW IMPRACTICAL WOMENS STUDIES
- PODCAST WITH HIBA
- PURCHASE A PAIR OF “COOL” SNEAKERS
- BUY MEAT FROM THE BUTCHER
- FARMERS MARKET ONCE A MONTH
- USE REAL CAMERA MORE
- EXPAND TAROT READINGS
- SPEND REAL, QUALITY TIME WITH PARENTS + GRANDPARENTS
- TIE UP HERHABITAT LOOSE ENDS
- PRACTICE DIGITAL ART SKILLS
- PRACTICE PATIENCE AND VULNERABILITY MORE
- COMFORTABLE SKATEBOARDING
- COMFORTABLE SKATING
- GET HEALTH INSURANCE
- MOVE INTO OWN PLACE
- TRY TO BUY 80% VINTAGE/REFURBISHED/WASTE FREE
THE BASE COAT OF 2018
I feel like I got a bit of a head start on the year. I’m in the running of self- publishing my second book, I chopped all my hair off a couple of days before NYE, I have a new relationship that was seeded in 2018 and is now budding only a week into the new year into something as loving and joyous as my wildest dreams could ever encounter. I started going to the gym again and not because I have a desire to loose weight or look a certain way, but because I know that exercise makes me feel good and strong. Because that work will help me with other goals like hand stands or things that take a lot of mental endurance.
I started the year with money in my savings and art projects that are full steam ahead. I’m absolutely crushing it in the adulting field of making appointments and getting paperwork filled out. I have submissions started for 2 major publishing contests.
It feels good to know that this is because in 2018 I worked hard, faced fears, made sacrifices, and – more than anything else – really believed that I would be getting what was best for me no matter what happened. I trusted the energy I put out in the universe to support me. I trusted myself to have my own best interest at heart.
THE QUIET RESOLUTIONS
There are also more private resolutions that are less of goals, and more about conscious exploring. Like drinking – it doesn’t make me feel good! But I really like a glass of wine or a beer with friends! Can I resolve to drink when I feel like I want to enjoy something instead of escape something, like I would at a social event? Can I embrace myself fully – that I want and like to sit in a corner and observe. That I don’t want or need to be loud and socializing with everyone.
Or, one of the more common resolutions – fitness goals! I used to want to look a certain way or be a specific weight or have some kind of routine. For years I wasn’t happy with how I looked or felt, and after a lot of reflection and learning I realized all those feelings weren’t really about my body but about my mind. Instead I resolve to be kinder to myself and have a better relationship – this means knowing I want to go to the gym, but not needing to see certain results or making myself feel bad if I don’t reach them. It’s goals like handstands and splits where I am actively working to improve and see progress in something I’ve been working on in a long time.
I think my overall resolution is to improve the way I see myself. To have the person I want to be, be the person I am. To always be questioning that and learning from myself. To trust my own answers and intuition.
I’m excited to see what 2019 brings me, but also what I can bring to 2019. This is a year of abundance – of give and take from myself and the universe.
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